It's been a month since I've arrived and the picture I had painted for my future seems so distant and is beyond my capabilities.

Apart from the fact that I am still very hopeful, I find myself drained off all the energy within me.

For now my children would most definitely be my primary focus and ofcourse my assignments that I put my hard work on daily.

How I wish I could soon move out on my own where I can think work and feel the way I want to. It is difficult to exist in the shadow of an overseer waiting judge at evry turn.

I am tired now and I don't know how long more I would need before I emotionally collapse in a nervous breakdown.

Tammy, Dinu, Shashi Shakila I miss u guys sooo much... you guys a irreplacable.

Sakshi, Dipna, sandeep... you guys are appreciated always for the shoulders that you offer in support for me now.

I guess I am beginning to value knowing who my real friends are......... 

I still love my life and determined as hell.....